Quick update
Monday (6/9) => Helped mum out at her stall from morning till late afternoon. Went for a BBQ with classmates from the other group (1 class = 2 groups) at Palawan Beach, Sentosa. I was invited so i went. Left early to catch last monorail out.
Conclusion = Good day
Tuesday (7/9) => Helped mum out at her stall again. Went home with her.
Conclusion => Good day, but can be better
Wed (8/9) => Mum sent me to do errands, thus i didn't go to the stall. Went over to Karen's place to put my bag down (was staying over). Bought a slice of cake for S to celebrate her birthday (belated). Happy face on S. Went for BBQ again with my group of classmates. Had lotsa fun. Went to club at Newsroom after that. Had more fun. Got drunk, puked, felt very much better.
Conclusion => Very very good day
Thurs (9/9) => Slept the entire day at Karen's, prepared dinner. Karen made a makeshift 'curtain' with the blanket we bought from Ikea. Was meant for her mum. But she didn't want to use it.
Fri (10/9) => Watched Karen do her work. Made things up with Karen. Went home after lunch.
Sat and Sun => Stayed home and did work but went out to meet Karen after her paper on Sat. Had dinner together and dropped by Esplanade coz we got no where else to walk.
Conclusion => Good day
Mon (13/9) => Sch reopens and been hectic till now.
When my day starts wrong, it ends wrong.
I had a lousy day today. Got irritated with my classmate coz she couldn't understand a simple term that can be understood using layman's term. In exact, she could just break the term up and understand each term as an english term.
Told Karen about it plus something V said after school and me coaching V Immuno tomorrow. In the end i got reprimanded for it all. Was unhappy but what can i possibly do? This is just me and that is just her.
Window shopped a little and realise that it was getting late. Mentioned it once but Karen didn't quite get me. Maybe it was the way i said it. I mean, we were having fun window shopping and all of a sudden i just went "oh my my...look at the time.." Karen was amused and said i was cute. ok..i'm a sucker for praises..so i forgot to remind her again. When i finally did, we got unhappy due to some misunderstanding of what Karen said. Once again, i was unhappy. Upset to be more exact. Realised that i had walked onto a path that i know i'll constantly get hurt. But i still wanna walk on. Unhealthy. But i am still gonna walk on. This is just me and that is just her. Accept each other for who they are.
Finished shopping for groceries and went home with dinner. Realised my sore throat is getting worse. In fact, it's spreading around to my whole entire throat. Up till now, am not sure how i got it. Oh....bought Shindeller's (is that how you spell it?) List. Gonna watch it when i'm free.
Right now, i've to mug for all my final tests and do my reports properly. Exams are in a month's time. Not much to study but lotsa things to rem. About 10 chapters for each examinable module.
Friends
Just read Karen's blog and it started me thinking. Who are my friends? Are those that i call friends my friends coz i have something which they can make use of? If they had nothing to gain from me, will they still want to be my friends? Sometimes, i believe that no one will be my friend coz i really am irritating. Don't any of you say no. I know myself well enough in certain aspects. But i guess this is only so when i regard that person as a friend, a friend whom i think will take me for me. Some part of me still believe so. But i am getting skeptical towards everyone. Maybe i just want to protect myself somehow. *shrugs*
-iWrote 9/16/2004 10:38:00 PM
